another day...

...of learning lessons

I so wish to truthfully say that those all-too-important life lessons have been grasped and put into action, but alas I apparently have a long way to go.

As a mere 22 year old I cannot expect to have within me the wisdom of the world, but where is the line? How much can I ask of myself? Can I create a standard of living that would demand a higher level of integrity, focus, and determination?
Thus far I have supremely failed in every attempt.

A short explanation of the situation…
I’ve basically spent the last 2 days doing nothing. Since my class schedule is light for the first time in four years I barely know what to do with myself. This new found freedom has caught me entirely off guard. I came into this year hoping for a higher degree of character- to spend more time with the Lord and not on personal indulgences. Instead, I’ve sat in my room for two days & watched a season worth of Weeds. While I certainly understand the need for escape or a simple pick-me-up this was out of line. I do enjoy the show, but at what price? I came away with the language of a sailor and the perception of a stonier. A bit dramatic, but you get my point.

So this is the question I’m now asking myself. What will it take to shift this behavior?
First off, I’m here writing this blog. I process my feelings through the use of the written word so I must be doing something right. 1 point towards success.

Now, where do I wish to end?
- fully embracing my need for the Bible, not just prayer
- tracking my life through some form of journaling
- reminding myself of how luck I am everyday
- telling my friends how much they really mean to me
- just being genuine. however that may look